DRRTY GRLZ R HOTT

so i thought writing in a journal was to express your thoughts and feelings and to share memories or hardships with friends. i didn't know that it is a place to be constantly criticized or what not. for those who my life isn't the way you planned. Yes, I did drink on a thursday, but I didn't have my children. And I actually do know what its like to come from alcoholic parents, as well as drug addicted parents, the apple def. does not fall far from the tree, bc you soo...I myself as well as the father of my children are both recovering addicts. So, I'm sorry if I am unable to run to all of my friends to dump my sorrows on, but unfortunately, I don't have any friends that I could trust with my feelings, so therefor, I dump them in a bottle of Midori. I'm sorry if people don't like it. But its how I deal for the meantime. I don't drink when I have my children and the thought doesn't even cross my mind. Maybe if people actually knew what my life is like and what is actually going on in my life, they wouldn't be so quick to judge. But apparently, all the judgemental people feel that they need to express their feelings to me and try to make me feel bad about my actions. Maybe a different approach would be better. Hey, I know one. Actually try and be my friend to actually know how I am and what the things are that constantly throw my life for a loop. But, I think that is too much to ask from some. So, I will carry on with my life and everyone else can do the same. And if you dont approve or don't like it, then don't read it. It's as simple as that.

Off to bed now, I have a very long day ahead of me. Landscape for a friend, Paint some more at the new shop, Get a massage, Give a massage, Go on date with new boy. Yay!